Yesterday was move-in day. Once the piano was placed in its perfect spot (in my humble opinion) I could start setting up the rest of the house. The moving truck left before noon, my sister and brother-in-law spent a few hours helping with some of the heavy lifting, then I was alone.
I spent my first night in my new home, waking up to a quiet, dusty house. Out the front window I look east to watch the sun rise, and notice that every speck of dust and dirt is amplified in the light! For this time of year when it’s not yet hot the warmth of the sun is a blessing.
Then the loneliness hit. I have spent so much effort in the past several months reminding friends and some of my family that I prefer to do things alone, or at least I prefer to not have someone telling me how to live my life, set up my kitchen or place my furniture. Now I’m paying for it. No-one dares come by to check in or give suggestions.
I have always preferred to be alone, although not 100% of the time. I do love my family and close friends, and enjoy spending time with them but my saturation point is normally much sooner than others realize and I suppose I have perfected some strategies to guard against feeling overwhelmed with the chaos of sharing my life with others.
Today I am feeling quite lonely.
Reflections 
That balance between being alone and seeking the solace of others is always a challenge for me as well. In retrospect, I have long overstayed my welcome with some and long wished for solitude while among others.
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I totally agree. It’s a perfect spot for a piano. With a window in your back and a huge east facing window in front, it does feel and look perfect. And such beautiful floors too. Congratulations on your move and your new home.
It’s always a period of adjustment when walking into a new place isn’t it. Like you I enjoy my alone time and doing my own thing. But when loneliness sets in I’ve been known to pick up the phone and reach out. It helps to remind myself of how pleased I was when someone reached out to me. in their moment of loneliness. The gift is both ways.
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Thank you for the reminder. My desire to be independent and self-sufficient sometimes goes to the point of being selfish.
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