Yesterday was a rough day. I felt emotionally drained by mid-morning and the day went downhill from there. Some random events triggered strong emotions and each one compounded on the others throughout the day.
A few years ago I received incredible assistance coping with, and working through some trauma from the past, including childhood trauma and abuse as an adult. Two amazing counsellors helped me until I was at the point where I didn’t see the need for regular sessions. I’m not sure if that was a wise decision.
Yesterday I just wanted to hide from everything and everyone. I was on the verge of tears after every hint of conflict and criticism.
Katydids are common but rarely seen. To see one just outside my window was a treat. At first I didn’t know what it was, since I have never seen one before, but I observed it hiding in plain sight on my deck chair for well over an hour. It wasn’t startled by my presence; perhaps it couldn’t see me or sense me through the glass window. She was either grooming or eating whatever pollen she had gathered on her front legs.
Throughout my day yesterday I kept thinking of this creature who came to visit and stay quietly near me. I wondered why she would come out of hiding to risk being seen.
Life goes on no matter what kind of day we experience. Each day is a chance for a new beginning and each emotion, whether very down or very high, will pass. Keep showing up and never give up.
Reflections 
Hmm…do you think that perhaps the Katydid , which is usually a master of disguise, was letting itself be seen by you as a loving message that being vulnerable, and being seen is a risk well worth taking? A risk that leads to intimacy with life?
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Maybe. That’s not an easy thing to do most of the time. Thanks for your comment, as it gives me more to think about.
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